Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Out of the Broom Closet
I find myself wondering what people think of me now. Yesterday's post on the magic of faith was the first post I've ever shared on facebook and google+. While I did filter out one specific viewer (for the sake of the sanity of my family), it was open to the rest of my world. I read and reread it, trying to see if it sounded ridiculous or over the top. And I really don't think it does. I think my logic is sound, and the psychology and science behind it is reassuring to the intellectual side of myself.
It may cause concern among family members and/or friends, but I also feel so much freer. I'm not hiding half of myself anymore (except to one person haha), and it's a huge burden lifted.
I hope that my contributions to conservative groups and circles aren't viewed with suspicion now. I write and speak for the audience I'm addressing. It in no way implies that I don't fully believe the views I espouse. I'm far too rigid on that kind of integrity to ever feel okay with faking it in front of even people I care about deeply. I've been open with doubts, struggles, and cognitive dissonance. And I've also been open with epiphanies and spiritual understanding.
So. I'm out of the broom closet (is it narcissistic of me to assume people noticed? lol), and look! I'm still me!