I weighed myself this morning, and found that I had lost six pounds. Fasting for a full twenty-four hours cleansed me in different ways than I was expecting. I haven't done it in so long, and I've never given myself permission to drink water along with my fast. It was the perfect combination, and this whole week I've been feeling much less inclination to drown emotional difficulties in food. I'm excited about this new development, and true to my character, I'll probably try to go overboard with it and fast every week until I lose momentum. Or possibly I'll just stick to phases of the moon. I like the idea of fasting with the new moon. It's a sort of empathetic connection--the moon hides her face and gives no light, no nourishment, and so I participate in the darkness by refusing nourishment from other sources until she begins to turn back. (I am taking artistic license with this--I am well aware of the scientific realities of the phases of the moon...)
My phases, while not in sync with the phases of the moon, deserve to be recognized. A true connection to the nature around me, with the spirits that inhabit every last molecule of this earth, is my ultimate goal. I seek to know the Parents by fully embracing Their creations. Fasting has become a surprising way for me to accomplish that. I almost look forward to another day of hunger. I just have to decide how often I want to torture myself. I mean, cleanse myself. ;)
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