My first inclination is to say "YES YES YES! Get rid of the creepy bugs and the scorpions that I can't see!!" But then I have a couple problems:1) We are starving college students right now and really don't need the bill when we haven't even seen any pests around the house except a couple ants that aren't bugging us (get it? get it? hahaha)
2) Shouldn't I be trying to live IN nature?
So the first problem pretty much means we aren't getting pest control because the husband has control of the purse strings (which I have absolutely no problem with, btw. We'd be in a cardboard box if I was in charge).
As for the second problem. This is not my natural habitat. I don't belong in a desert, I belong in a forest on a mountain somewhere overlooking a lake. Lots and lots and lots of trees. But I do believe that every creature and creation has a spirit. The earth has a spirit, plants have spirits, the creepy bugs have spirits. They all have the right to a life and pursuit of happiness. They deserve to fulfill the reason for their existence. The fact is, they really aren't hurting me. I don't even see them, so there's no serious anxiety problems. They aren't biting us, or eating our food. Shouldn't I just let them alone? Live in harmony with all living things? How can I proclaim to love nature when I am at war with little creatures just because they make me want to run away screaming or jump on a chair?
I can't relax in nature if I'm getting attacked though. Going out at night in a green area around here is just asking to be swarmed with something. I can't even take a walk because there are cockroaches skittering across my path every two feet. It's not a very peaceful thing, and makes meditation difficult, to say the least. Large bugs make my skin crawl. Especially when there are a lot of them.
So now I'm at war with myself. Fortunately I don't have to find a resolution to this war any time soon, but it's really making me think.
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